I dreamed a dream in times gone by

[gothard]

[The holidays came slowly and went by too fast. It seemed that everyone was excited to go home for Christmas time to spend it with their families, especially since the mandatory dorm system meant that they couldn't see them through the normal school year. All of the students of 1-A had enjoyed a Christmas party together as they chatted excitedly about their plans for Christmas. When Izuku had been asked, he had said that he and his mother usually kept Christmas simple...they'd make sweets together and have hotpot on Christmas Eve before opening presents in the morning. He was eager for the quiet and peace of time spent with her more than anything.

That night was the last that anyone heard from Izuku throughout the rest of wintr break. Of course his closer friends, like Iida and Ochako, had immediately been wondering why he wasn't returning calls or texts, until eventually they got a single response from him. Only one, and only to them. It stated that he'd gotten sick and probably wouldn't be responding until school started back. It was a weak cover, but they believed it. It was the best that Toshinori could think of in a pinch without coming up with a worse lie. He couldn't tell even his best friends for fear of the young boy's own safety.

The news of why he really never called or texted hit the first morning everyone returned to classes, and the entire campus was alight with mutterings about it. Izuku wasn't at school at all, of course...and the specifics of the news were left rather vague, probably to protect him further. When Kirishima had heard, he couldn't even believe it until he saw the news report on TV in the common room and realized...it was true.

Kirishima had been trying to unpack his things like everyone else on the first day back since classes wouldn't start until the next day, but he hadn't seen Bakugou come in yet. So when he finally does, Kirishima comes running up to him before any of the others can, breathless.]

Bakugou!

Comments

[bakucchan]

Don't sound so shocked... it's just because I can't stay with anyone else. You're the only one who understands what this feels like.

[He doesn't want to put pressure on Kirishima or Denki or any of his other friends with this. Because he knows it's likely he won't even sleep, and instead just sit there crying or screaming or whatever. Deku would most likely leave him alone and let him grieve without it turning awkward but anyone else would probably try too hard to fix it, or would feel too uncomfortable dealing with it.]

Can't go back in my room either. Not yet.

[mightdoriya]

No, I...it's okay. I understand.

[He pokes a little at his rice some more with his chopsticks.]

It's the least I could do.

[After how much Bakugou had been there for him.]

[bakucchan]

...yeah.

[Bakugo gives a halfhearted reply in agreement, before he turns back to his own food and starts eating again. Slower this time, as he gets more rice into his system. Admittedly, it did make his stomach feel a lot better having something bland in there so he can see himself and rice becoming very familiar with each other over the next week or so.]

We're.. probably gonna have to get used to seeing each other more often now. Can't imagine All Might wouldn't want to take me in too.

[mightdoriya]

[Does that mean Bakugou has no other family to take him in, just like Izuku? It makes him sad to think about.]

Mm...

[He gives a soft sound of acknowledgement, unsure how to broach that subject at first. It's not exactly like they'd be together for a fun reason, after all. And Toshinori had enough on his plate as it was...

He was starting to feel like a burden.]

[bakucchan]

[Well.. he has other family members, but they live too far away to keep coming to school here. He'd rather just push on and continue his studies than go to some lame hero school for lame asses, and leave all of his friends behind. He was just starting to get used to them, like hell does he want to try and be nice to strangers.

He does realize it's an awkward thing to talk about, of course he feels extremely.. offput just thinking about it. But he knows All Might well enough, and if it wasn't him it'd be Aizawa most likely but he's pretty sure he'd rather not have to look after such an angry, loud person all the time.

Either way, he leaves it there for now, feeling like if he talks about it more he might start crying again and that's the last thing he wants right now.]

[mightdoriya]

[For the time being, the main thing Izuku is concerned about is making sure Bakugou actually eats. He's doing a lot better than he did the first day, in which he foregoed food and water for almost two days straight. He can guess that this will be all he has all day, too, but it's better than nothing. So he eats his own meal in silence, keeping his head down so Bakugou won't be able to see how glassy his eyes still are. It's hard to say whether it's from sympathy or how close this all is hitting to home right now.]

[bakucchan]

[The two of them eat in silence for the rest of the night, neither looking at each other and both unsure of what to say. By the time Bakugo's finished his rice, he sets his chopsticks on top of them and leans back in his chair, waiting for Deku to finish eating because he knows if he got up and left the other boy would be likely to follow, and he doesn't want to rush him.

He's not sure what to do with himself, anymore. Honestly. He's just tired and feels numb inside, and he knows the grief will come in waves as it did for Deku and he doesn't look forward to that. He doesn't look forward to having to go back to his dorm eventually as well whether it's just to get clothes to change into or to try sleeping in there or what. He just... doesn't look forward to anything.

At least he'll have class to distract himself with. That's something he actually does look forward to, busying himself with focusing on tests or combat training or whatever. He's not going to let this bring him down as much as his heart wants it to. If anything, it just sparks his desire to be the greatest Hero inside of him even more.]